Why does it hurt?

It hurts right now

This pain comes and goes

It’s back right now

It’s all the food

It’s all the sugar

It’s the thoughts

Like compounded interest

But with thoughts

Of what could go wrong

A lot.

it’s the lack of good sleep

It’s the failure

The magnifying glass is on the failure

I don’t remember the winning

Am I on the wrong team?

Where’s the coach?

The light hurts me

And that’s the good stuff