Am I alive?

There's no direction
there's no order to the madness
I'm aimless
there's glimpses of visions
but they vanish
I'm aimless
ghosts haunt me and stay
they're uninvited
I'm torn
each direction has bushes
there's no way out
I'm torn
I'm driving with no money
to a place that doesn't want me
I'm searching
I have friends that I hate
I want to leave but their there
I'm searching
time is standing still yet racing
this adds to my confusion
am I alive?
pictures enter and go with no retention
the movie has injured me
am I alive?