It's near just not here

Going in unscripted
Not the best plan
How am I depicted?
An uncomfortable man.

Suit is in my favor
That's the lie I tell
Each breath I can savor
As I walk through silent hell

Forget the lines
The laughs of before
It's all the same signs
And the routine is a bore

Holding on to noise
Is the essence of my goal
I'm all the boys
That's the motto I stole

Thoughts are there to steer
It's more than you think
It's putting in the gear
And slipping in the sink

At last I try to end
The biggest type of cheer
After no one's friend
Not here but somewhere near